Sunday, October 30, 2011

Weigh in Day

Hello!! I spent the last 2 days at the beach for work - gosh, it was rough! It was rainy and yucky the whole time but it was still the BEACH! I've decided to weigh in on Sunday Mornings! These mornings are fairly quiet at home, it's a day of rest and reflection and usually, laundry. AND, since I hadn't taken any of my measurements since my surgery, I decided to take them this morning. WOW was I surprised at the change!

My weight: 272.9, which is a total lost of 26.1 pounds (minus 1.5 this week)
and my TOTAL loss in inches (neck, bicep, forearm, hips, waist, thigh and calf) = 13.25 inches!

Woohoo!!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Oh my gosh - it's been a week!

This past week has been so hectic! I'm still here and still chugging along. Last week at work, went by so fast. It was great being back to work and getting back into a routine after having been home for over a week. I'm still on mushies, slowing starting to introduce regular foods, just to see how things go and all seems to be going well so far. I've lost another 2.5 pounds, so I'm down 24.5 pounds in one month's time. Including my pre-op diet. I haven't really started exercising yet because I'm still having some port area pain and don't want to over due it too fast. All my incisions are healing wonderfully - it doesn't look like I had been stabbed 5 times anymore. I've heard that the port area will remain sensitive for a while - it that true?  I'm also feeling hungry more, so I think I'm ready for my first fill, which is just over a week away. I'm nervous about it, but I think that it will get my weight loss jump started again and that will help me feel like I'm accomplishing something.

This past Monday, a close family friend of ours lost his battle with brain cancer and I think that's the day that I felt the most port pain - stress and grief, perhaps. It's hard with the loss, but knowing that he's no longer is pain is helping - doesn't help the actual feeling of loss tho. Also, yesterday, was the one year anniversary that I lost my four-legged best friend Precious Puppy - it was so hard to lose her, she had been part of my life for 14 years. My son was upset because he couldn't remember what she looked like and that saddened me. But I know that he doesn't hold onto things like I do.

Anywho, I'm hitting the beach this weekend, actually on Friday and it's for work! So, I will be beach side and on the clock - how awesome is that! I'm trying to think of the positive to help overcome the last bit of negatives that have intruded on my life. Call my selfish, but I'm looking forward to getting away!!!

I hope all is well with you wonderful ladies and I can't wait to share my next few days with you later!! Hugs!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Day 13 and you lovely ladies

Happy Wednesday!! Today is day 13 post op. I'm feeling pretty good, except a little pain in my port area, while I believe might just be <gas>. When I was at the Dr the other day, I found out that the incision on my belly where I 'thought' my port was, actually isn't where the port is. The port is a few inches below and way behind my skin under that incision. That's where my pain is and when I told the Dr about the pain, he said that it was probably just pulling on the muscles, that are still healing. SO, hopefully, that will subside soon and then I'll be a-okay!

I got my haircut last night - not what I wanted, as usual - it's so hard for me to pick a cut that I think looks good on me. BUT, the consensus at work is that it is great - so hopefully it will grow on me. If not, it will be grown out  in two weeks and then it will look like what I want.

Anywho, thanks for all your input on the salad info! Makes me feel better. I have a few more days of mushies and then I try bigger mushies and then I can start introducing "real" food. I don't know if I've lost anymore weight yet, I've decided that I'm only going to weigh on Sunday mornings, so that I have some sort of consistency.

Well, I hope everyone has a great hump-day!!  Later!!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Day 11, Post Op Appt and back to work!

Well, I went back to work today - YAY! I also went to see my Surgeon today for my Post Op appt. I've lost 22 pounds since the beginning of my liver-shrinking diet. The Dr said that I was doing good and that for me to not to expect to lose any weight over the next few weeks because my stomach is still healing. I go back on November 7 for my first fill. Kinda nervous about that. 

Anywho, everyone was excited to see me back at work - most of my immediate co-workers and very few of my students know that I had surgery. Everyone else thinks I went on a vacation. 

Oh yeah, while I was at the Dr today, the dietician gave me the okay to start experimenting with new foods and textures. She suggested trying everything at home, first, so that I don't have an embarrassing moment out in public. It also mentioned in my book, that some people have trouble with salad greens. OMG - WHAT?! PLEASE tell me that one of you fabulous ladies have found a way to eat salads. I love salads and thinking that I won't be able to eat them anymore has really gotten me worried. 

What say you?

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Day 9 Post Op and Feeling Human again!!

Well, my first day of no Gas-X - woohoo! LOL, it's the little things in life. I'm glad that I took the extra 2 days off of work, it's given me time to really recuperate and get to the laundry, clean up, etc. It will make me feel like I can go back to work and all will be right in the world. I've been listening to my body and started on the mushies a few days early. I went out to dinner last night with my parents and had grits and eggs. I never thought that I would really enjoy that for dinner - lol. But, compared to the jello and pudding and stuff I've had the last few weeks, it tasted like fancy dinner! But, I could only eat half of what they gave me, so I saved the rest and had them for breakfast! Life is definitely getting easier. I'm trying to just do my 3 cup-meals a day and lots of water in between. Once I get back to work and more on a schedule, I think it will come easier.

The only pain that I'm having is the incision that is where my port it. Because I have a big belly (shocking, I know), the port lies on the "outer rim" of my "upper spare tire", which is not where I was expecting it, but soon enough, it will be hard to tell which love handle is which!

Sorry - had to include a belly picture!

Tonight, I had re-fried beans with some cheese and they were so yummy! lol I didn't get to finish the whole serving, because I'm trying to ween myself from drinking while eating. So, I should have enough room for some fat free, sugar free jello as a snack tonight.

Anywho, life is great - one more day of "vacation" before I return to work. Also, I'm including a picture that I took today - I see a difference already. So far, I'm down around 22 pounds since the beginning of my liver-shrinking diet! Woohoo!!!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Day 6 Post Op and Still Alive

It's the end of Day 6, almost a week post op and I'm finally starting to feel more "normal". I am still having such a problem with gas, bloating, etc. And since I'm still on full liquids, I haven't felt the restriction that my band is giving me. The gas pain I have, feels like I have to burp and then I feel this pressure in my chest. I'm wondering if that's because all my "innerds" are still healing from the movement and that one day the will subside.

The last week has been rough. My surgery went great, according to my doctor. I was in and out of the hospital in less than 9 hours. I felt a bit rushed when I got home, but all I did was sit around and sleep. I was so discouraged, I wanted them to go back in and take this sucker out - all this pain was not worth it. But, like everyone said, every day got better. With every day, I'd walk a little farther, sleep a little less, feel a little more human. I decided to take another few days of off work, just so that I could get a few more days of rest in. I was listening to my body and I don't think it was ready yet. Its been over 24 hours since I've taken pain meds, so I can drive my son to school tomorrow. That will be the beginning of the final healing stage, I feel.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Post Op Day 1 and 2 am feeling very discouraged

Thursday, October 6 at 9am was my surgery. All went well according to the Dr. Went through 2 stages of recovery and then I was home by 4:30.( I will post more about my surgery experience when I'm sober) I don't really feel like I was ready to come home. My first night home, I just rested and took pain meds. Then on Friday, which I am calling Post Op day 1, I was home, sipping clear liquids, napping, walking, breathing in my little machine, etc. Nausea hasn't been too bad and I've just been sipping clear liquids. Well,, I keep having the headaches and hot flashes and figured that was because I hadn't taken my Cymbalta since Wednesday night, and the Dr's PA told me that I shouldn't have any trouble swallowing it, for me to just take it easy. So, down it went, will a few sips of water. Within minutes, I think I felt the "sliming" that I hear everyone talking about - the feeling of imminent vomitus rage - well, I took a few more sips of water and the feeling subsided, so I thought I was in the clear. I went back and laid down to get ready to go to bed. Within about 20 minutes, here comes the urge again, but followed by actual dry heaves - I haven't had the dry heaves in forever, but they hurt so bad - I started crying and I just couldn't stop - and nothing actually came up. So, after that was over, I sat at the edge of the bed for a minute and then laid down and fell asleep. This morning, Post Op Day 2, I woke up to the "green apple trotts" - yes, I had/have diarrhea -- sorry, TMI, I know, but I'm relying on you lovely ladies for your advice. So, I'm wondering if this is from the surgery and no BM before surgery, or if all of this is from the damn Cymbalta?! I can't live without the Cymbalta right now, or at least I can't come off of it right now - I'm at a loss.

And then, there is this feeling like I might burg, and then I have this pain/slight nausea in my chest - is this going to be like this forever? I'm really feeling beaten here - and I have no one to blame but myself.

S.O.S - Some one please help me?!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Nervousness

So, today was the last day of my liver-shrinking diet. I started on clear liquids at noontime. My surgery was bumped up to the am, so I have to be at the hospital at 7am. I live almost an hour away, so I'm gonna have to get up rrreeaaallllll early! I've packed my bag just in case, I've taken before pictures and the nerves have set in. I'm ready for this life to end and my new one to begin!!

Well, good night and wish my luck! Next time we "chat", I will be one of you!! A Banded Beauty!

Night!!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Day 11 of Diet, 3 days until Surgery, Visit with Surgeon

Wow. Happy Monday! I'm down just over 12 pounds since I've started my liver-shrinking diet! There are only 3 more working days (including today) until my surgery. I have my final consult today with my surgeon. I went shopping this weekend for my clear liquid diet, that I'm supposed to start at noon on Wednesday.

My nerves are starting to get the best of me. Today is also the beginning of my Fall Quarter in school and I have FOUR classes this term. I'm thinking about dropping one, just so I"m not overwhelmed until Christmas.

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