Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Mixed Emotions

Happy Tuesday!! Well, I made it to, and through, my dental appointment. It was better than I thought it would be. They allowed and encouraged me to listen to music in my headphones during the drilling and that made a world of difference. I will be making a dental appt playlist for my future appointments!!

Nothing else is new - I didn't each much last night after I got home and ended up going to bed early. The numbness wore off at about midnight and I woke up and then couldn't get back to sleep. Needless to say, I will be sleeping good tonight!!

I had a NSV (Non-scale Victory) this morning! I put on a skirt that I bought several months ago and haven't worn recently, and it was too big!! The numbers may not be going down, but something's moving!!

Anywho, hope everyone has a great Tuesday!!


Monday, July 22, 2013

I need a boost!

Another weekly weigh in and no changes. At least I'm not up any. I have been really increasing my movement and trying to increase my water and nothing is changing.

Last week was pretty good to me. I can't complain - well, I could, but who's listening anyways? Work is good; it's always good, I love my job. If you remember, I work a large University and the summer is over, so the Fall is starting soon and I look forward to meeting new people.

I got to have a girls night out with my best girlfran on Friday night - boy I sure needed it! There's something about spending time and chatting just girl talk! No pressure, just good (almost) clean fun! If you ever want to know more about yourself, just have someone you know and care about (a girlfriend) help describe you - having someone else's perspective of me really helped.

The rest of my weekend was pretty uneventful. My son was away at his Dad's, so I enjoyed the peace and quiet. This brings us to Monday - grrrrr. I have a dental appointment this afternoon and the dread has my band so tight that I can hardly eat anything. I'm a mess and big baby when it comes to the dentist. If only they would give me a Valium or Xanex before hand, then I wouldn't care what they did - lol.

On my 'getting a life' front, I'm diving head first into the dating scene. Progress: Nada, zilch, zero, nuthin'. On that note, I've started reading Fifty Shades of Grey series again. Makes it even more worse being single! ;-)

Anywho, I hope everyone has a fabulous Monday!! Fingers crossed that I don't pass out at the dentists, and that my dating profile is full of emails from handsome gentlemen callers! ;-)


Monday, July 15, 2013

Does it ever get any easier?

Does it ever get any easier? "It" being: Figuring out what to eat? Getting back on track when thrown off track? Getting back on track after purposely going off track? Dating as a newly skinny person? Dating in general? I'm finally somewhat comfortable in my own skin and think I'm ready to get out there, but geesh it's hard.

As my 36th birthday approaches ( in November), I am realizing that I'm where I want to be, totally, yet. I'm happier than I've ever been, and don't get me wrong, I'm happy with my progress and very proud of myself, but there are aspects of my life that I thought would be different at this age.

I thought that I'd be happily married (again) by now. I thought that I'd be further in my education. I thought I'd be somewhere other than I am. Honestly, I thought I'd still be fat, but that has changed, so I suppose that everything else has to change along with being heavy.

People say that I should just be happy and that 'it will come' but I've been happy, and waiting and darn it, it ain't here yet.

Is there anyone out there that is single? or in a new relationship? Any advice? I've been out of the dating scene for quite a few years and need to learn the rules.  Like in particular, I've been told by several guy friends that you don't message guys first, like on dating websites - is that true?

Anyways, sorry to be such a Debbie Downer, I've just realized that I'm not quite where I want to be and need some advice on how to get there.

Thanks ladies and I hope you have a fabulous day!!


Thursday, July 11, 2013

Ugh...what to eat, what to eat and mini TTT

I'm so bored with food. I've learned that food is just fuel but deciding what to eat is the worst. I wait until I'm starving and then I make really bad decisions, or eat too fast and get hiccups. What do you eat?

I've gotten a lot of good suggestions from my WLS's nurse, but they aren't feasible for my schedule, and also, yogurt is often on the list and I can't STAND yogurt. I've tried just about every 'make and model' and none of them are good to me. Can you ladies share with me what you eat on a daily basis? I need some good ideas.

Thanks in advance!

Also, I'm going to start my weekly weigh in's again this Sunday. AND I'm gonna take some new pics in the bathing suit that I started out with - I'm curious to see how much I've 'grown'.

Hope everyone has a great Thursday!! Speaking of Thursday, here's a short and sweet TTT (ten things Thursday).

1. I'm hungry.
2. Only 39 days until school starts again.
3. I need to go clothes shopping - anyone have any 12-14's they've outgrown?
4. Wow, I wear a 12-14!
5. I love coffee.
6. I love fancy creamers in my coffee.
7. I'm hungry.
8. I think I need to find something to eat.
9. Squirrel!
10. Happy Thursday Y'all!!


Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Another day....

I'm feeling much better today! Yesterday, I wasn't doing well - perhaps it was not eating solid foods but I was feeling kinda lightheaded and faint. Luckily that has passed and I am feeling like myself again!

I don't really have a lot to say about last night and so far today, but I wanted to blog something so that I can get back in the habit of blogging again. It really helped me in my journey thus far, and as I'm approaching my 2 year bandiversary, I'm hoping to get closer to my goal by then.

I will leave you with some motivation for the day! Talk again soon!! xoxo

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Two in one day - Whaaa?

Ok, so, while I was at my surgeon's office yesterday, he showed me a picture from three days before my surgery. Whoa - I was blown away. I cannot believe how far I've come! It really helped me to put things in perspective, as to how far I really have come vs how far I have yet to go.

What do you think?

I'm baaaaccckkkkkkkkkk (hopefully!)

I'm back. Officially, gone over the edge, back. I have had enough of being off track. I'm ready to get back on track and on with my life. I haven't done a weekly weigh-in in a while, and it shows. I had an appt. with my surgeon for a fill yesterday, so this is the first day of the rest of my life. I'm back, with a vengeance.

08/22/2011: 299.9 (first consult with surgeon)
10/06/2011: 284 (weight at surgery date)
08/26/2012: 215.6
09/15/2012: 212.8
07/08/2013: 206.4
Loss: -6.4 pounds!
Total Loss: 93.5

I had made it to One-derland around Christmas time, but between graduating from college, and well, life in general, I have fallen off the wagon and have gained a few pounds back. I haven't lost a new pound in a while. I did way better when I was blogging my journey because the accountability was greater.

I also know that there a few local lovies that follow me and since we have lost track, I don't feel their love as much; so here's hoping that their love returns soon!! ;-)

Anywhoozle, let me back up a bit. The last time I blogged was wayyyy back in March. A lot has happened since then. Spring Break was the last week in March and my best girlfriend and I took our boys to Orlando for a couple days; we found this great resort that was near Downtown Disney and was just enough Disney exposure to not actually have to go to Disney. We were going towards the beach, but it was too cold. We hit St. Augustine instead and had a blast. It doesn't really matter where we go, or what we do, we always have fun!

 In April, after it warmed up a bit, we headed to the beach, finally! It was my friend's birthday and we surprised the boys with the trip! Super fun! I love surprising the kiddos!

Then, in the end of April, I ran a Mud Run 5k with another Banded friend and her cousin! It was such a blast!! It was a Women's Only run and the money went towards breast cancer research and treatments!

In May, the karate company that my son goes to had a Mother's Day class every Wednesday during the month, as a thank you for the Mom's. My best girlfran was the teacher - total bonus! We kicked total butt and I'm seriously considering joining myself. Since I'm no longer a gym rat ($$), I think this might work out!

In June, my same friend and her hubby celebrated 10 years, so we went around St Augustine taking pics of them for their Anniversary. We had so much fun!

This brings us up to July. The first day of July, we had a Girls and Guns night with a bunch of girls from work. It was so much fun and empowering!

Then, this past weekend, July 7 was my baby boy's 10th birthday! I can't believe he is in the double digits already! We had a Lego Block party and it was a huge success! Also, we had some photo booth fun and it was a hit with the kids and adults!

This brings me up to date. Thanks, in advance, for sticking around. I really need your help with some accountability. Talking to you all has helped me so much and I feel that lagging behind on my blogging has been part of my problem as well.

Hugs! Talk soon!

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JJ and Jack!