Friday, June 29, 2012


Thank you all for your kind words, extra prayers and happy thoughts, it worked! The lump was just part of the artificial fatty tissue and nothing to worry about. They did also mention seeing a plastic surgeon to 'smooth' things out once I'm down to my goal weight. I will be checking into that, just in case!

Thanks, again, for all the good vibes!!

Until tomorrow.....good night!

Rough week

This has kinda been a rough week for me. Monday, I noticed a lump on one of my breasts while I was in the shower. I meant to investigate further, but after I got out of the shower, it totally slipped my mind. Then, yesterday while getting dressed, I put my bra on and while 'adjusting the girls' I felt the lump again and a sort of twinge of pain. So, as soon as I got to work, I called my Gyn nurse to see what she thought.

Let me back up a little, when I was six, I was in a go-cart racing accident and had to have artificial fatty tissue replaced on my entire left side. The plastic surgeon told my parents that as I grew older and matured, that I might have to have it fixed when my breasts started to develop. Well, as a teenager, I had big boobs, and one was always bigger than the other from the fatty tissue - an ultrasound revealed that the fatty tissue on the side of my left breast had folded over (happens when placed in active youngins'). They said there was nothing wrong with it and that we didn't have to do anything unless it became an issue.

6 years ago, during a routine gyn exam, my Dr felt a lump and sent me for a Mammo. It revealed that it was the fatty tissue build up from my accident when I was little, but that we should 'keep an eye on it'. Well, this lump is in the area just out from my fatty tissue area. SO, with all the said, I'm thinking (and praying) that it's the same lump as before and now that there isn't as much fat in my boobs, that I'm just feeling it, again, for the first time.

So, on that note, I'm asking you ladies for some prayers, good vibes, etc. that this is the same thing as before, and perhaps, in some twisted way (my humor is my way of coping at times), I can get a free boob job out of all this. I'm heading out for my mammo is about 15 minutes, so I will have an answer today. SO glad I didn't have to wait the weekend.

I'm not making light of the matter, because breast cancer or any cancer for that fact, scares the shit out of me. I have lost so many family members, before their time, for all sorts of cancer.

Wish me luck, and I will post more on the matter later!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Actual Weekly Weigh in, etc.

Weekly Weigh in:

08/22/2011: 299.9 (first consult with surgeon)
06/17/2012: 225.6
06/20/2012: 224.4
06/24/2012: 223.6
Loss: -2 pounds for the week!!
Total Loss: 76.3 - WOOHOO!!!

I also took all of my measurements, because it had been a while and I've lost a total of: 29.25 inches since the beginning of my journey!!! 9.5 in my hips and 7.5 in my thighs!! I can't believe it!! I mean, I can feel every inch being gone, but I just can't believe it!

I'm sure I've mentioned this before, but when I started this journey, I was on 2 different medications just for the pain caused by the Fibromyalgia, that they finally diagnosed me with because they couldn't find anything else wrong with my except Obesity, which is a DISEASE!! My diseased-ridden body hurt, day in and day out, and I was on the verge of a break down. I couldn't sleep, I was so depressed, on the weekends that my son went to his father's, I would stay in bed the whole weekend, not even exaggerating. Now, minus all these pounds and inches, I sleep most every night, pain is very minimum, and not even every day. I always plan all sorts of things to do with my son when he's home for the weekends, and then the weekends he's at his dad's, I do laundry and other things that I didn't do while we were doing something together! I'm also a full time student and my week is way busy. There is NO way on God's Green Earth that I would have EVER known that I could feel this good. I'm in a full-fledged cry while writing this (TOM is here, duh!) If I had known how this was going to change my life, I would have done this a LONG time ago. I just wish I could talk my Mother into having it done. She is a little smaller than I was when I had my surgery, but I KNOW that she could add a decade to her life, if she could just lose weight, and I know how hard it is to do on your own!

Last weekend, we went out exploring for Father's day and my Mom told my son to take a picture of the two of us from behind, just to see the comparison. Here is the pic. My mom is wearing jeans that were TIGHT on me when I went in for my surgery. Size 22/24 and the jeans I'm wearing (with the white shirt) are a size 18.


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Mid-Week Weigh in and Seminar tonight

I decided that I wanted to weigh this morning when I got up, which I told myself that I wouldn't do anymore, but I figured that I would just peek to see what it said and boy, was I surprised!!

Weekly Weigh in:

08/22/2011: 299.9 (first consult with surgeon)
06/17/2012: 225.6
06/20/2012: 224.4
Loss: -1.2
Total Loss: 75.5 - WOOHOO!!!

Also, I'm wearing a new outfit today - size 18 pants and XL Misses (NOT Women's) TOP!!

Tonight, I'm going to a WLS Seminar tonight for moral support and I'm kinda excited! I'm feeling pretty sassy today, minus a few more pounds and a new outfit, look out world!!

Hugs! Happy Humpday!!

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Slight Fill and WLS Support Group Meeting

Well, I went to see my fabulous Surgeon and he high-fived me on my loss since the last time he saw me!! He almost wouldn't let me get a fill, but since I told him that I had been getting hungry, a lot, between meals, more like hangry, he allowed me to get a fill. After I spoke with the PA, she got everything ready that the Dr was going to need for the fill 'just in case' he decided to give me a fill. While she was out of the room, I snuck over and took a pic of what everything looks like - probably looks the same everywhere, but I wanted to share it with you:

Later that night, after I got out of the shower, I was examining my belly where the band-aid was my fill earlier. I noticed that it was not where I thought it was, so I took a picture to compare, and sure enough, my port has moved down almost four inches - and when I say that it has 'moved', I really mean that the fat that was behind it disappeared and made it appear to have moved!! Yes, of course, I'm going to post the picture for you to see:

Anywho, on to today. Today, was my day of liquids and slight headache which occur after said fill. Tonight, happened to be a WLS support group meeting and I wanted to go, since I had missed the last few months, AND because this month our guest speaker was a local, good plastic surgeon who had a lot of experience with patients after large weight losses. As usual, at the beginning of our meetings, we go around the room and introduce ourselves and tell a little about us, if we want. Well, there were several bypass patients and one pre-byass and then a couple of band patients. Then it came to my turn and I said, "Hi there, my name is Heather. I had Lap Band surgery on October 6 of last year, just over 8 months ago, and I've lost almost 75 pounds" - and then everyone claps - and then I smile and the next person goes on and then I say to myself, I can't believe that was just me talking - lap band and lost almost 75 pounds - wow - me, really?! It's still so hard to believe that I have this medical appliance sewn into my stomach and that I am down to a size 16-18. It just doesn't seem real sometimes. Back on track, while sitting through his presentation, I'm calculating how much more I have to lose (and how my money I'd have to save) in order to look like Jessica Biel - let's just say, I'd have to win the lotto - LOL!

Ok, well, it's been a long 2 days and tomorrow is going to be long too, because I'm going with a friend of mine to a WLS seminar at a different hospital, for moral support. I'm gonna 'come out' if any of them start asking questions ( or band bashing! ) - While, everyone is entitled to their own opinions, I'm everyone too!

Hope you all had a great day!!

Monday, June 18, 2012

Weekly Weigh In and Stuff

Weekly Weigh in:

08/22/2011: 299.9 (first consult with surgeon)
06/10/2012: 226.4
06/17/2012: 225.6
Loss: -0.8 (not quite what I was hoping for, but moving down is the right direction!)
Total Loss: 74.3

Well, I'm going to see my WLS Dr. today. I have a WLS Support Group tomorrow night and then going to a WLS Seminar with a friend on Wednesday. This week is dedicated to WLS!!! I'm seriously considering getting a fill today - I'm going to wait and see what the Dr has to say first, but I bought liquids and mushies for the week, just in case. I'm thinking that maybe a small fill will be just enough to get me jump started again.

I had a NSV this weekend! I went shopping for some clothes on Friday and I headed straight for the Women's section like I've done since I was 16. Well, I was looking at all the 1x's and they were all TOO BIG! So, I wandered over to the L and XL section of the MISSES and I found several complete outfits! I have enough to mix and match for two weeks worth of new clothes!!! I was so excited!! Also, I found a pair of really comfy jean-capri's - size 18!!! I haven't worn an 18 since I was, um, maybe a Freshman in High School, which was almost 20 years ago - wow, that just made me feel really old!

Then, we went out to eat for my brother's birthday on Saturday night and then walked a trail, did some exploration with my Dad on Sunday for Father's day - we walked over three miles total - it felt so good!

I will post pics later this week!! I'm on the first day of my 2 weeks off of school and have already watched several movies, read a book and a half, and washed all of my clothes, sheets, curtains, etc.

Have a great week and I'll let you know about my Dr appt either later today or tomorrow!! Wish me luck!

Friday, June 15, 2012

Ten Things Thursday, One day late!

Well, I remembered to do my Ten Things Thursday on Friday morning, while reading everyone's posts from Thursday. Oh well, it will be just as good today.

1. YAY - it's Friday. I'm finished with my school for two weeks and then I just have one more quarter after that and I be a college graduate! woohoo!

2. I'm thinking of my Reuben today and missing her terribly. I use the Tervis Tumbler she gave me daily to get in my 100+ ounces of H20!!

3. I went through my closet and am down to approximately 12 items that I can wear. I went shopping a few days ago and found 1 shirt. Ugh.

4. I'm going shopping again today; wish me luck.

5. I got my hair cut and highlights re-highlighted today. I feel like a beauty queen.

6. I think I've decided against my fill, that I have scheduled for Monday. I might keep the appointment and go talk to the Dr and let him help me decide. Not sure - what do you think?

7. See #6, really, what do you think I should do?

8. Going canoeing/kayaking this weekend for Father's Day with my Dad. I'm pretty darn lucky to still have my Daddy around.

9. I'm kinda anxious to see what the scale is going to tell me this weekend. I've been tracking my every movement via myfitnesspal app and I'm really starting to hold myself accountable. This is half the battle - see #6 for more info.

10. I'm going to a WLS seminar with a girlfriend of mine in a few weeks. Some place other than where I had my surgery. Wondering if I should go incognito or if I should tell people that I'm banded. When did you feel comfortable telling perfect strangers that you were 'with the band'?

Welp, I hope all you lovely ladies have had a wonderful week and I will be back on Sunday with my weekly weigh in. Wish me luck!!

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Weekly Weigh in and Beginning of Summer

First things first:

Weekly Weigh in:

08/22/2011: 299.9 (first consult with surgeon)
06/03/2012: 228.6
06/10/2012: 226.4
Loss: -2.2 (woohoo!)
Total Loss: 73.5

I'm starting to feel like I'm back on track again. Going to the gym regularly, keeping track of what I'm eating and just using some good ol' judgment seems to help.

Also, it's the of the school year for my JJ. He's done with the Third grade and moving on to the Fourth - WHERE does the time go?! I honestly feel like he was just in diapers!

Welp, the weather is pretty crappy here and the lightning is getting closer and closer so I'm gonna keep this one short. I'm starting my last week of this quarter on my school and then I will get a break for two weeks, so I hope to catch up on everything then.

Have a good one!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Beachy Weekend and almost 8 months Post-Op!!

Weekly Weigh in:

08/22/2011: 299.9 (first consult with surgeon)
05/26/2012: 229.2
06/03/2012: 228.6
Loss: -0.6
Total Loss: 71.3
I didn't do as well as I was hoping, but it's still going down. I was only able to hit the gym once this week and with the weather being so poopy, I wasn't able to get in any walking.

Well, I went to the beach this weekend. The first weekend in a LONG time!! And, in my new bathing suit! I'm posting a few pics from the beach and then my almost 8 month anniversary before and now pics! I was really good about putting sunscreen on, but, unfortunately, I missed my chest - lol - you can tell in the before and now pics! I've also managed to drink probably my entire weight in water since returning from the beach - with all the water and the extra Vitamin D that is showing on my chest, I'm hoping to see better results at next weeks weigh in.  Ok - now for the pics!

And now for the Before and Now:

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JJ and Jack!