Ok - dark and deep - need some advice!

Ok, so, I don't know how many of you lovely ladies out there in Blogger land are single, but I am. I have been divorced for over 5 years and now that I'm more comfortable with myself, I've decided to join the dating pool and join a dating website. With that said, this world is full of huge douche bags!

But here is where I need your help. My brain hasn't caught up with the changes that my body have been through and I still feel like the fatty I once was. I still think that there is only one way to 'keep' a man's attention, and then once I give them my 'attention', they don't call back. I've always had a low self-esteem, and I thought for sure that once I lost my weight and felt better about myself, that the esteem would rise. It. has. not. yet.

Now, I'm not looking for a pity party, full of you are too good for that, etc., because I know that already. I'm looking for a list of rules to follow. I'm good with lists and rules, I just need to know what to do and what not to do. Make sense?

I'm considering going back into therapy to help with this, but I can't afford to really, and the woman that I was seeing, no longer accepts my insurance and I feel that I would have to start over again.

So, please help me. Give me some great rules to live by, for the dating world. How to suppress my fat-girl mentality?

Thanks, in advance, for all your love and assistance in this matter; I wouldn't want to imagine my life without all of you!!

Hugs! Have a great day!

Member of the Month

Here I am, again, another week without a single blasted blog. Ugh. Life is so busy and I have so much to say, just can't seem to find the time to sit down and say it. If only I had a little more energy. Now that school is over, I feel like a giant blob of nerves with nothing to do - when in fact, there are ton of fun things that I could do, but don't. Eh, I suppose I'm still in the honeymoon phase of graduation - I will get back in the swing of things soon enough.

Anywho, I have some deep subjects that I want to talk about (I will create another post for it), but before I get all depressed and deep, I wanted to share with you a NSV!! I have made Member of the Month at my Gym - the person that hated the gym just over a year ago, is now member of the month!! I can't get the article to save into a format to post here, so I'll just paste the words. Here goes:

This month’s Member of the Month story features Heather *****. Heather is a single mom and a full time college student -with a very busy schedule. Heather is about to graduate with an AA in Paralegal Studies (congratulations Heather!!).

 

And with that said, here’s a fun fact for all you readers….Heather will graduate wearing a dress that is smaller than what she could fit into in Middle School. Better keep reading because you will see, our pal Heather is not your average single mom/full time college student.

 

On October 5^th, 2011, Heather had lap band surgery. Motivated to get rid of the chronic pain that she felt in her joints and to get healthy for her son and herself, she made up her mind she needed to change her life, and that she did. After having a bone scan to rule out other medical conditions and undergoing a psychological evaluation, our single mom/full time college student decided it was time to lose the extra weight.

 

Now, you must know, lap band surgery is no joke. In order to be a candidate for lap band surgery (a procedure where a band is placed around the top portion of the stomach in an effort to slow the consumption of food, ultimately leading to eating less food), a person must have a Body Mass Index (BMI) of greater than or equal to 40 or a BMI of 35-40 with at least one additional co-morbid condition.

 

So, topping the scales at 5'7" / 299 lbs, Heather’s starting BMI of 47 made her an applicable candidate for the surgery. The lap band surgery does not come without risks and it is not a magic pill to weight loss either. Heather knew all this going into the procedure, and although it would be a helpful tool, she knew the lap band was not a cure all for her weight management problems. Says Heather, “It is not a magic bullet. The doctor does not just put the band in and all the weight falls off. Some people think I cheated (nay-sayers) but no, you have to change your ways and I did and I'm not going back. Nothing comes free.”

 

This is the type of attitude that leads to success. Being realistic, knowing that you have to put in some hard work, and make some permanent life style changes in order to see results are all parts of the recipe that helped Heather succeed. With her hard work, consistency, determination, and perseverance Heather has seen her BMI drop from 47 to 31.2. That's an OMG members!

 

 That's a loss of over 100 lbs since her journey to better health began back in August , 2011. Today, Heather is only 20 lbs away from her long term goal of 180 lbs that she spoke of the day she joined FFL Fitness Center.

 

Having a lower BMI not only indicates that Heather’s fitness level is improving but it also means that our friend is at a much lower risk for developing cardiovascular diseases and diabetes (yay!).

 

So how did she do it? Heather began to make small changes to her lifestyle in order to produce weight loss. “You have to pay attention to what you eat and when you eat it,” says Heather. She started coming to Fit For Life where she followed the routine that Monica prescribed for her for six months. Says Heather, "I started from ground zero. At the beginning of my journey, I was doing two minutes on the elliptical. Now, doing thirty minutes plus on the elliptical on a regular basis is no problem. Even more inspiring, during this interview, Heather was pumping it on the elliptical the entire time! That’s right, our two minute elliptical user has now progressed to the point where she can hammer on the elliptical AND talk for half an hour (amazing!).

 

At first, Miss Heather was slightly apprehensive about the gym. She was intimidated by the thought of the gym and wasn’t so sure she wanted to be a regular gym goer. However, this quickly changed. “Coming to Fit For Life made me realize I could lose the weight. The pain of being overweight far outweighed the pain of coming to the gym. The gym also helped me because it is a lot easier not to eat junk like cookies when you realize how much time and physical activity is required to work off those calories.”

 

Heather also started going to support group meetings. These meetings help her relate to other people going through similar journeys. She now follows forty to fifty women who blog about their fitness journeys. On these blogs, Heather and her fellow bloggers share tips, stories, experiences, and advice with each other. Having a strong support group truly helps her stay determined and on track.

 

Now, coming to the gym and blogging with other women are not the only things that helped Heather change her life. She also started walking more, drinking more water, fitting in small bouts of physical activity during her busy days, and tracking her food consumption with the “My Fitness Pal” App, and started to monitor her activity with a little gadget called a FitBit. (Check it out on http://www.fitbit.com).

 

Being a single mom and full time college student, Heather has limited time to exercise. She cannot just pop into the gym for several hours. Momma Heather began to incorporate fitness into her and her son’s daily routines. They started to go on bike rides outdoors, walk to her son’s karate classes twice a week, and if she was hungry, Heather would first drink lots of water and if she still wasn’t satisfied she would have a protein bar for a ‘boost’. Heather also slowed down while she ate. She did not eat so quickly that she practically swallowed her food whole, but instead, chewed each bite making sure she was savoring the taste of her meal.

 

Incorporating fitness into her and her son’s daily routine helps her get fit without the guilt of missing time with her son because she's at the gym. Another tool this multi-tasking pro uses to help motivate her along the way are pictures. Heather has taken pictures of herself every day for a year. She keeps these photos so she can track her journey and now looks back on them as often as possible to remind her how far she’s come.

 

After all of her hard work, one would think it is tempting to relax and slip back into old habits, but no way for our gal Heather. You see, Heather has a very high-tech, reliable way of making sure she is staying on track…..her son’s hugs! Heather can see her progress by how her son’s arms fit around her when he hugs her. Now that is very sweet and most worthy of putting in print.

 

She also stays on track by planning and running 5K races (that’s 3.16 miles folks!). That’s right, you read that correctly. Miss Heather recently ran her first 5K race ever. She used the “Couch to 5K” App to help her prepare for her first race (what a good way to put technology to use!). She didn’t run the entire time but she finished the race which brought her a sense of self accomplishment and pride. “I saw the finish line and I ran through it. I thought I’d have to cross it on a stretcher, but no, I did it!” Heather said. The feeling of accomplishment she got from finishing that 5K has inspired her to run another one (The Foam Fest 5K in March). Running two 5K races in one year is something she would have, “never, ever considered until now.” 

Run Heather, run!!!

 

So what can we all learn from Heather’s inspirational story? Determination, hard work, and perseverance pay off! Says Heather, "The weight loss journey that totally changed my life did not happen overnight."  It wasn’t one huge change that she made, but a series of many little adjustments to her daily life. You may be asking, is it really worth it? When we asked Heather if she regretted anything her answer was, “Even if I was having a bad day I would do it all over again a hundred times!!” So, is it really worth it? You decide!

 

The past few weeks have been a blur!

Again, I apologize for my absence from the Blog world. The last few weeks have been busy with preparing for and taking an exam that goes along with all of the schooling that I have been taking for the past 20 months of my life. The exam was hard core and was eight hours long over two days. It was hell. During the weeks prior to studying for this exam, I feel like I was unable to eat anything - I was constantly getting stuck and it became increasingly more frustrating.

SO - now that my apology, followed by excuses, are out there, here's the wrap up of the last few weeks. The week between Christmas and New Years, my family and I visited the mountains, where my son and I saw snow for the first time ever!! It was absolutely amazing and the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. With that said, I would not EVER want to live in it and I have a ton of respect for those of you who live in the regions that have snow all the time.

This was near New Found Gap in TN.

After I returned from vacation, I began studying for the test from hell. Once that was done, I was done-done. No more testing for me, for a while at least. I'm seriously considering going back for another degree soon - why not, right?! I can do it! I just want to take a break and spend some serious quality time with my son and help him get back on track with his school, etc. I feel like the last 20 months have really taken a toll on him and I want him to know how much I appreciate his patience with me. He's 9 - patience isn't a virtue at this age yet. 

This past Saturday, January 26, I graduated from College. At 35, I was finally able to finish what I started so long ago. I was able to share the day with my closest family and one of the greatest friends I have come to know. Along my journey, specifically the last 20 months, I have lost a few friends and gained a few friends. Some people weren't as patient and couldn't wait for me to finish my goal and therefore they had to go. I truly have one (new) friend that has been the most genuine, non-judgmental person that I have ever come into contact with in my entire life. If only she were a man, I'd marry her! (I tried to convince her to switch teams, but it was a no-go). 

In addition, I have all of you ladies that follow my blog, my friends that actually know me and follow my blog, and you all have been a super supportive environment for me and for that I am forever grateful. Without having a place that I could turn to and spew my most weakest moments, knowing that most of you have been through the same journey and have survived, helped me to keep chugging along.

So, as I have pledged in my last few blogs, episodes of apologizing and promises of more time with you all, I am BACK!!! Thanks for your forever patience!!

I leave you with some pics from my graduation. The dress that I graduated high school in (16+ years ago) was a size 24. The dress I'm wearing in these pics: 14!!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!

I know that it's been almost a month since my last post and for that, I am terribly sorry. The past month has been a whirlwind! I finished my last semester of school on 12/14 and has finals and final projects due the two weeks prior, so I was studying for those, etc. BUT, apparently all the hard work paid off because this girl right here is graduating next month WITH HONORS!!! I am so happy to be just graduating and to be graduating with honors is a huge accomplishment. I decided right after going to school that WLS was for me and I've never been known to just take 'one thing at a time' so, during my third semester of school, I had my surgery. That semester was my only one with no A, but they were all B's, so I'd say that's pretty good too! I don't walk until January, but I feel so much happier without having the homework and finals weighing me down anymore (pun intended!).

This month, the 16th, was also the birthday of  a dear friend who passed away in May, at the young age of 44. It was much harder than I thought it would be. He's no longer in any pain anymore, but he's not here with me either. Losing him really hit home, because if he had taken better care of himself sooner than later, he would still be here with me.

Then, there is little holiday called Christmas that I have actually been able to enjoy. The day after Christmas, my parents, my son and I are heading North to the Smokey Mountains. We rented a cabin for a week and we are hoping for snow. My son and I have never seen snow! I've had to do some shopping for some new clothes, warm clothes too and I haven't purchased anything larger than a 16. I was 26-28 when I had surgery - I haven't worn a size 16 since middle school.

On that note, today's weigh in was a HUGE goal for me. I've hit the 100 pound loss mark - which also puts me into ONEDERLAND!!! So, I'm walking in a Winter Onderland this year!! And I couldn't have done it without the love and support of my family, my son, my friends and all of you lovely ladies! My New Year's resolution is to start blogging more often. I have so much to say and just haven't had the time to sit down and put it all into words!!

I wish everyone the best of holiday season, whichever holiday you celebrate!

Hugs to all!!

Here's some more recent pics:

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Thanksgiving, etc.

The past couple of days have been a pure blur. It started off at work last week with a short week, which they always seem to be longer for some reason. My birthday was this past Friday (11/23) and they threw me a little party at work with a HUGE cookie cake (my kryptonite) and my students gave me a tiara - they are so funny!

Then, I left work early on Wednesday so that I could get in a good workout before the long weekend and the gym decided to close early too. So, I went home and took a nap and it was FABULOUS!! lol

Then, Thanksgiving came and went and it was wonderful. Having my parents, my big bro and his wife and my son all together, eating dinner around the big table was just wonderful. I am so thankful for my family. Then, we sat around looking through Black Friday ads, with no intention of going shopping, just wishful thinking. Then, on Friday, the big day, we got up and my wee little man fixed me breakfast in bed, and then he took me on a movie date (with my bro and sis in law). We saw the Rise of the Guardians - CUTE movie!! I thoroughly enjoyed it and will be purchasing it when it comes out. We then went to our local steakhouse for my lunch. There, they brought me a brownie the size of my head. I had a few bites and it was DELISH!!

My Weeman and Me!

Then, I had to let my son go to his Dad's for the weekend, which saddened me but then I realized that I could do a little shopping without him(for him), which I enjoyed. While I was out shopping, girlfriend of mine called and asked if she could take me out to dinner for my birthday and I said absolutely!! Not having to cook all day - I was in heaven. She took me to Carrabba's, and I'm pretty sure that they lace their oil and spices mixture with crack because it is soooo good. I nibbled on a little bread, first time in a long time. It was good, but not worth overdoing it and getting stuck. 

Making a wish!!!

Then, Saturday I spent most of the day doing homework and then my brother and sister in law took me out on a little shopping excursion and then out to dinner. Whew, I won't be eating out again in a long time; I've had my fill of dining out for a while!

All in all, it was the MOST fabulous weekend that I have had in a LONG time. Now comes the countdown of the year = the number of days until I finish my school, Christmas, Winterbreak Vacation and then my actual graduation. I'm so excited, I could just spit!!

Hugs to all and I hope you had a fabulous Thanksgiving weekend also!!

November Thankfulness

I have been posting on my personal Facebook page, everyday, the things that I am thankful for. While I won't bore you with all of those things, the one thing I will share with you, that I won't with Facebook, is that I am thankful for each and everyone of you wonderful ladies that follow my blog! Especially the ones that take the time to comment and give me some of the best advice. I know, without a doubt, that I wouldn't have made it as far as I have, without all of you and for that, I am thankful.

Hugs and Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Mobile blogging

I have just uploaded the new Blogger app so that hopefully I can blog more often, like when I'm sitting in traffic or at Karate with my son. So, today is a good day. I feel pretty good about myself and looking back at the pictures from before and now, really helps. I also had a few of my current students looking over my shoulder when I was looking at the comments on my blog and they saw the pictures and they were literally blown away. They had no idea the change that I have gone through.

On the school front, I'm so so so happy to be almost finished. So happy I could spit, LOL.

On the running front, I'm considering running another 5k that "escorts" our local Christmas parade. It is in like a month, so I have time to prepare and/or decide.

Well, that's all for now. Let's see how this post goes.

Hugs!